The Responsibility Scares Me.'Cause,Only thing I ever fear,Is myself.Few know my horrors.Terrors;We survived.Almost dying dozens of times,Surviving everyone around us:Who Didn't.Will my evils return?Monster I once was?Which relationships…Can I trust?"Power Overwhelming."Typed Slow.
Eve Of Something Great?Or another rainy night?Cold fan wind on face.Real Rain Outside.Fake audio inside.Dark.Infinite Black.Old Ritual;Replicating the conditions,Before our birth into this Universe.Back To Void.Stroke me to sleep,Lovers.Hold me in the dark.I'll do the same for you.
We can become lost -All too easily.Adrift without our morals,Or values,To guide us.My ethical philosophies -More well-considered than most,Having traversed a full spectrum.Villain & worse.Need no lies of Heaven or Nirvana,No damn Fairy Tale Shangri La.Paying my penance,Comes from within.
I have one dream,That stands above all the rest.To never be beholden,To anyone else,EVER AGAIN,UNLESS I WANT TO BE.Forged into my suite of weapons,Tools,Values,& beliefs.Exercising portions where I can,Shreds of my greatest dream;Until I achieve the true Means -To my ultimate Ends.
Goodnight, Void.Sing me to sleep.Carry me to bed.Tuck me into my grave -One shovel full of earth at a time.Leaving them behind what I can;The manic scribbles,Of a self proclaimed Witch.Humanist Manifesto,Scrawled across spellcraft,Hidden between the lines & stanzas,Of Riddle-Strewn Poems.
Detest those who beg.Give me a stereotype Tsundere,Who can push me to achieve.Show me a good time!Seeking peaks,Piquing seeds,Seeing Peeks.SHOW ME YOUR RESOLVE!The Most Terrifying Thing In The Dark.If you can stand before me -Fearless?Nothing else can phase you,One state,Or another.
Callous Lover;At my thinnest.Where reality plus intention breaks fate.Destiny strung out a la Event Horizons.Warping spacetime in all the right ways,Slowed.down.to.a.crawl.Spaghetti or not -Coil you with my hands.Tracing circles across your skin,With my calloused fingertips.Callous.Cruel.
Fight me,Across any Medium you choose.Just happy to have a new challenge.New thing to play,Master,Toss upon my piled scraps -Within My Psychic Junkyard.Sometimes,Rival or Nemesis or Not…Same goes for them.They become a thing.With which to play.To Master.Toss upon my piles.Ravish.
These little selves.Little lives.My absence'll be sudden -I expect.One day helping others,Best I can.Another,Harvested for parts.Organs to keep children alive.Tattooed Skin to tan, stretch, display.Bones to carve into polyhedral dice,For Savants & Geniuses.Rest?Medical;Or Education.
Goodnight, Sweet Void.Variations on Abyss.Void Complex,On top of Pygmalion Complex,On top of Something Worse.Sudden smell,Strong taste,Burnt popcorn.Marshmallows,Charred black via ignition.Burning rubber,Dangerously overheated brakes.Smell of the grinder,Or zip cut.Molten metal.
Greatest Of Hags Know;Most reliable & accessible wells,Of power?Primal.Ancient Rites Of Sun & Moon,Nature itself -Across half dozen energy sources:Wind, River, Wave,Gravity, Radiation, Geothermal,Flowing Electricity -Means one never has to wait,For a lightning storm,Ever again!Breathing...
Wondering Aloud:Bet Neanderthals,Denisovians,Worshipped The Sun Too.Praising Sol,Like Homo Sapiens Sapiens.One Wise Wise.Gone extinct,Poor cousins.Our shreds of their genetic code -An only echo.Last of interspecies hominid unions.Did they punch ink into skin too?Pictures Of Our Star?
Sun Worship.Guilty as charged.Fuel to drink with my skin,Perfect nuclear fusion.Paid homage by carving it into my flesh,With needles.Tens of thousands of punctures of black ink.Solar powered,Knowing Solarpunk futures,Don't have to be fantasy.Sustainability.Day.Night.Forever.Radiant.
Could do an entire year into Found Poetry,On nothing but half remembered phone calls.Swirling together into pieces of a whole poem,Organized according to overall themes,Literary Devices & Choices,Struggles & Hopes."Phone Calls - 2024, 2025," until my death!Dibs.MY Thesis Project.DIBS!yeet
"Haven't you thought of getting vengeance on all those who hurt you or acted in bad faith against you?""Heh. Thought about it. Always have a plan to dispatch everyone I meet, with as much cruel efficiency as possible, per The Brutal Calculus, one of my riddles that only the clever can solve.""Only...
Find me the perfect girls.Femmes.Enby Cryptids.Someone -Just as smart as me,Capable of keeping me on my toes.Instead of forced;Playing the Paternal Protector,For various Daddy Issues.Want love,Not abuse.Freedom,Not a stranglehold.Rivals,Nemeses,As much as partners.Enemies To Lovers.
Goodnight Void.Take this;Tonight's Midnight Ritual.Practiced semi consistently.Enough to fuel curses,Hexes,Sure.Drink my power in.Feel it settle into thy bones.Pace & speed of life -Lived five times faster than other Humans.Enough.Slow.Stop.Time Frozen.Goodnight,Void.Love you still.
Loving The Unloved.Hardest task a monk can undertake.Achievable before even love for one's self.Poor things.Trapped in vicious cycles of self loathing.Often,So abused & traumatized -They flinch at the touch.Even touch,Being used to control them.Placation by their abuser.Love bombs,Often right...
If it breaks a thousand.Maybe I'll pay attention.Perhaps.I never make promises,I know I can't keep.Darling.If my bets come true?I'll give you the Cinderella -Fairy Tale bullshit.Grant whatever wishes you want.Make your dreams come true.Heart as pure as yours,Fucking deserves it. XoxoxO
Heretic Hero.Hah.That's what I need.Perfect foil to my Angelic Villain.Naught but eyes, wings, & rings.Asymmetric shapes -Once.Long since dissolved into fractals.Energy into matter.Omnipotence into Legend.Is it you?My Perfect Nemesis.Wayward Warrior.Come here.Let me show you love.