My Dozens Of Skills:Crafted mastery from survival.Eggs, Tomatoes, Salami, Onion.Starting as ghetto ingenuity,From the fridge.Continuing into a minimum wage Chef job,Eleven bucks an hour.Need to pay rent somehow!Even Art…An escape from the hells of modern living,Not some bougie bullshit.
I'll make a point -One day.Who knows how long from now,When people bootlick the rich -& I'll stop them."Oh, here:"Extending my shoes towards them."Since you love bootlicking,Wanna lick my boots too?"Fuck Capitalism.Fuck the people who run it.Corruption,Evil,Through & through.
Whenever corrupt,Right wing governments,Tell you privatization is a "good thing,"That'll lead to lower prices for consumers! Stop them right there.Tell them:"No it fucking doesn't!"There's more than enough…"Historical Evidence."To prove then wrong. Some of us are plain tired of lies.
Broken bust,Smashed statue.Thrown across floors in a rage -Yet only managing to crack thy face,Into two perfect halves.Suddenness Of Metaphor Strikes Me.Bipolar halves,I was subjected to.Split face syndromes,Love bombed,To screamed at.I'll gather my fire axe,Smash the rest to dust.
Newer Versions.Rarely do I refine my work,Be it witchcraft or written word."Remember Your Dreaming,Become Omnipotent.Remember You're Dreaming,Become Omnipotent."Loops to recite,In waking worlds.Mantras,Enchantments,Neuroplasticities,Social Engineering.Auteur,In more ways than just one.
Call me to endless slumber,Eternal sleep.Those half realized dreams,Detached from my waking self,Everything slow,Like moving through water.Ready to die -Again & again,But prepared to go down fighting,Tooth & nail,Every damn time.Lucidity?Please come.If only for the briefest of respites.
Tempted to pull a Strumosus,From some novel decades old.Chef:Alone in the kitchen at night,Making oneself eggs.Already in bed,Plagued by a day cold,Napping throughout the day.No.I'm not that character.I am many,But not him.Birthing my own creation.My own grudging reality,Here on Earth.
Forgotten,As we'll always be.Dead Folk -In Droves.Casualties;Lifestyles,Sociologies,Class,Undiagnosed Disabilities.A Psychiatrist,Told me I wasn't disabled.Granted,Admitted he knew little of ADHD.Executive Dysfunction?Pretty fuckin' disablin',Doc.Depression?Hoo boy!30,Eh?30…ha
Another city.Another place.Fallen.Destroyed.Skipping ahead through time,Watching another downfall -Again & again.Daytime dreaming,Allies,Pupils,Lovers.Betrayals.Is my subconscious telling me -That I will fight,& fight,Forever,Only to always fail?What wisdom can I take from that?
A cold empty universe,After all Matter -Energy,Has gone.Stopover point,For interdimensional travellers,Those who need a shortcut,Or resting place.We'll be long gone,Thus lacking any notable opinion.This Reality?Used to be Life,Light,Warmth,Once.Trillions upon trillions of years ago.
Dainty,Waiting for a random Solar Flare,Or Asteroid,To take us all out.We're less important in the universe,Than we believe.Tiny specks of dust.Yet arrogant enough to claim -That our crafted gods are omnipotent!No.The world isn't 6000 years old.No.The stars will eventually burn out.No.
"Tryin'."Word I come back to,Time & time again.I'm trying.Through nobody wanting me -Crushed hearts,To endless rejection letters.Dreams in which I say goodbye:"I'll always love you."Divine suffering,Buddhists might say.Tryin'.Seas wanting to drown me.Subconscious wanting to cage me.
Goodnight,Void.Simple gratitudes.Plans to bake blueberry muffins,Or cranberry bread.Silence,But for my own mad rambling,Juggling a dozen thoughts at once.Scaring my peers -By singing along to music down the slopes,Or humming new tunes ad hoc,All while planning futures.Not mine.Theirs.
Ego Death Was Easy -that first timeAbused & gaslit by a parent,Into complete dissociation.For decades.Sorry.Ring Ring.Nobody home.Satellite Orbits,piloting my mech from spaceLess than worthless.Gravebound at best,Long before we knew,Neurodivergent death statistics.DEATH BY -selfThe Infinite...
This begets no witchcraft.Failing to objectify willpower,On top of reality.Hunched over cutting board,Midnight -Devouring greasy spoon smashburgers,Failures & all.Fueling dreams,On meat.All eventually boils down to meat.Wanna tell us how everything ends?It's not in bibles,But galaxies.
Taking my leisurely time,Beating Shakespeare.Publishing hundreds in mere hours.Each small piece of my soul -Black Hole Compressions,For every poem. - oxo Very few,Know I'm roughly one fitty from done.My Silly Secret.Back in 2023?Scheduled poems until Fall 2025.Prolly already beat him.
Underestimations Are Weapons.Tools I must teach you,Little Witches.Vernaculars & Lexicons,Of Wood & Dirt.We 'gon get it.Giv'er,Cross cuts & ridges,'til we don gotta care wha we talk like -no moreDropping Meticulous Pretexts,Masks,Ones We Create.Noticing old dialects.Slang.All Lost.
Gender?Sometimes Yes.Sometimes No.Depends how deep I am.Queerness as dictata -Antithesis to itself.How even such communities,Are gatekept.You either believe in everybody,As individuals,Or you don't.Don't need to tell you:Bear Or Man?Cubs,Twinks,whateverWas always the fucking point.
Crushing pressure in excess -Pitch black trench life.Abyssal Leviathans.Lurkers Below,Coiled around the planet -Until silt & rock,Settles across scales.Fangs,Maw,Unhinged Jaw,Open wide.Vacuum suction.Water displacement.Teeth sinking -Into scarred white remains,Of a tattered tail.
Goodnight - Void.Frantic,Late Night Drives For Dopamine.Unable To Ever Rest.Dying Nightly To Nightmares,Dodging Death When Awake.Not yet,Lover!Need more time.Please,On Death's Head.Just need more time.Our own mortality,Can be a source of dark power.Embracing Entropy -As some of us do.