So am I.My heart fracturing,Fragmenting into ten thousand pieces.As if I hadn't just finally,Reassembled the shards.Will this laughter,Eventually die?No longer cackle;Grim macabre,Morbid Humor,Black sarcasm.From dark,Back to dark.I want to laugh.I do.Perhaps I'm forgetting how.
But that's my fate,Perhaps.To be alone like Nikola,Until I die.Nobody wants me.Nobody needs me.So I remain the Hermit.Avoiding other Humans,Out of disgust with their ignorance,Or bigotry.Never shit talk others in private,But fucking hell do I get shit talked about,Like it's going out of style.
What a piece of shit.Holding my opinions & values -Equal to those,Of my shitty, chronic liar kin.My six years of university?Equal to some right wing conspiracy,Spewed by an idiot.My two degrees,Decade of teaching experience?Ignored.Somehow -Hypocrisy.Ignorance.Thrives.
Goodnight,Void.Never been as angry,As this past few years.Seeing people finally for who they are.Ugly bigots.Wretched kin,Who spread lies with nary a fact check.Who hate people like me.Perhaps that.Deepest betrayal.Family.Stabbing me through the holes in my ribcage,Until I've no blood left to bleed.
I'm afraid to love.Sure of the hurt that will come,Certain of the loneliness that persists.Trying to heal what is broken,After it has been shattered across the floor,However many times before.Such love is deep,Echoing the infinite depths like whalesong.Yet fragile,Still.
"You Are The Company You Keep."Fools.Grow so tired of fools.PROPER FOOLS SHOULD BE MERRY.Only fools of the ignorant variety left,I see.Pathetically Emotional.Failing at objectivity.Useless,Towards my goals of Human Utopia.Regressive,In beliefs,Heresy,To my demands for Truth.Yet I've always been...
For someone like me?For whom truth & fact are divinities?Lies are worse than poison.Those who spew false propaganda -Are dishonourable curs.Ignorant cowards,Too stupid to bother looking for truth.The exact disease,Plaguing our species.Leading us to extinction.Fuck these right wing idiots.
Speaking to The Void,Just to cement resolve.As of now:Refuse to talk politics with family,Ever again.My knowledge treated as dogshit,As they do the same shitty garbage forever more.Believing in,Voting for conservatives,No matter what.Lying.Shifting goal posts.Me,Forced to "prove it."Never them.
Right Wing Political Supporters:Step one;Be naturally stupid & easily led,Usually tricked via one's ignorance,Bigotry,Or arrogance.Abuse either their inability to think critically,Or their apathy & sloth,To never verify what they're told.Step Two;Fall for populist politics,Repeat...
Such slander was a norm.Fighting:Morals,Mine Vs. Theirs.Playing Imperative:My myths & legends,Always skewed evil.Leaned into the bit.Neurodivergent Life.Heard it all to my face:Retard.Gay.Fag.Gossip & rumors follow my wake,In this Universe.So I only speak truth;Detesting their lies.
Whelp.What else can we do?Individuals,Fighting for our futures.Any other than this one!Billions of people -All struggling against the yoke,Of wage slavery capitalism.Modern slavery by another name,Of course.As oligarch cabals;Dictate everything about our lives.Money "talking," still.
Those Who Believe Everything,At Face Value,Are already lost.Somehow lacking a critical thinking lens,To observe things from all angles.Close.Distant.Near.Far.If only those of us,Who refuse to speak lies,Weren't doomed!Wading through a society -Where falsehood & lying is normalized.Ew.
Nah.Fuck Capitalism.Starving Artist as I am,Or not.I'll never sell you something,With enthusiasm.Despise shills & shilling with a passion.Myself or others.All kinds.I make my art for my own dopamine.People can take it or leave it as they want.Autonomy.No coercion.Don't want your money.
Fools.Cursed in ignorance or dogma,More than not.Is that part of my own curse,In return?To spend eternity amongst them:Correcting misinformation & lies,Teaching those who refuse to learn.Even the clever,Can succumb to ignorance.Wallowing in it like mud,Refusing to grow:Stagnant.Stupid.
Derelict rusted ships along deserted shores.Groaning metal skeletons in the wind.Hundreds of wrecks denoting sacrifices.Fighting blindly to their deaths;For gods who never existed.
Let me play grotesquerie,Rolls upon rolls of fat.Endlessly consuming -Often just for dopamine.I've existed at all points,Across spectrums.Athlete,Thin & lean.Obese,Round & slow.Don't need help -I've been collecting wisdoms,For decades.But;Need to find an old resolve.A Different Hunger.
Thriving Rot.Divine Decay.Thinking back in millions,To times when trees fell,Yet remained.No fungal dissolvers,To reclaim such biomass.We.Us.Dragging out such old corpses -Flora Plus Fauna,As Coal.Crude.Gas.Prefer decomposition,To becoming a future source of fuel.Rotting,Even now.
Wretched hive of flesh & bone.Cellular makeups -Trapping us in these frail mortal shells.Carapaces to wear as carcinisations.No armor made of Metaphor,Can deny genetics,Or flailing alleles.My husk.My home.My prison.Trapped behind these grey eyes,In this slowly aging body,Until my death.
Valor?No.Not courage or bravery,In excess.Rather;A Lack Of Fear.Grim confidence,Underlit with dark conviction.Malice crushed in my fists,To ensure cold calculation,Clean.Lacking any self-preservation instincts:Ready for my own slaughter -If it means I take my enemies down with me.
To placate my ghosts,Lovely flock,I do haunt my homeworld.Familiar orbits.Dreams of Kepler.Perfect ranges for carbon based life.Foolish Necromancers,Play corpses & spirits.Me?Dark Arts powered -By every single death on Earth,That has ever happened.Wielding extinction events as diesel.